Moving....

Well, for those of you who don't know, Bruce & I are officially a couple and I'm moving in with him in the upcoming days/weeks. I've never met anyone like him and I really love him. We are going to NY City July 14-16th for a romantic weekend and to see the Broadway musical Phantom of the Opera. I know that people don't agree with the whole gay mariage thing and I know it's not recognized in PA, but this is the man I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with.

I have a lot of packing to do, I want to be completely ready to go when I come out to my mom, I'm not sure how it will go, especially when I announce that I'm moving in with Bruce. We are going to go a morning before work this week and get a queen size mattress because I'm not taking mine and his bed is to small and in bad shape. I'm also going to go get a window air conditioner because the apartment is hot and this is the first summer they have been in there so they didn't realize how hot is was going to be in there.

Well, lots of wrapping and packing to do.

2nd date!

Ok, so Bruce & I went on our second date last night (Friday). I went to pick him up and was invited in to meet his room mate Lauren....which I already knew her from Sheetz, lol. We went to Friday's to meet up with Meredith & Fran (my friend from high school & her husband) for dinner. We then did the walmart run, I like going there to walk my food off, lol. Then we went up to Hillview lanes for midnight bowling with them and Mer's brother Mike joined us. Bowling was fun....and Bruce & I had our first kiss with many more to follow, which really threw me because I wasn't expecting the first one at all..... After bowling we all went to Denny's for desert and then I took him home and before he got out we kissed again..... He really likes me alot and although we both had concerns with the age difference, he's 21 & I'm 27, we realized that age is just a number. I think we may be approaching a point of a serious commitment together (as in boyfriend/companion), but we have both agreed to take it slow because we have both been hurt in the past.

I know that some people don't agree with my decision, but it's my life to make my own decisions. I'm finally happy with who I am, I'm finally content inside. I can only hope that people learn to accept Bruce as part of my life because I want them to meet him and to know that I am being treated well.

I think I'm falling.....

I think I'm falling for him! I think I have finally met someone who likes me for me and who wants to be with me! Our first date was Wednesday and it went really well. I picked him up at his appartment and we went to dinner at Denny's and we talked for quite a while. We then went to see American Haunting, it was more funny than scarry. And contrary to popular belief, I was a complete gentleman, I dropped him off at his apartment and I left. I like him, but not completely in a physical way, I like what I see, but I like more so what is inside....I really like him. We had a good time and we are going out again Friday night! I can't wait to see him tomorrow night! Why couldn't I have met someone like him years ago instead of the heartache and emptiness I have faced? I can't wait to see you tomorrow Brucie! <3 Billy

Having a rough night....

"Good Riddence"
Greenday

Another turning point
A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
Directs you where to go
So make the best of this test
And dont ask why
Its not a question
But a lesson learned in time

Its something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of
Good health and good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial
For what its worth
It was worth all the while

Its something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

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To my friends.....I hope you had the time of your life.

This will be the song played at my service when I die, weather in 2 weeks or in 50 years......I don't want a pubic viewing, only to family & close friends....I want creamated and I want half of my ashes spread in the ocean on the east coast, the rest I want to go to the Oregon coastline because it's the one place I want to go, but probably will never see in person......

I'm missing you right now Aunt Linda, at a time in my life where I need a friend who always knew what to say, you aren't here because you have gone home. I question alot....is God really still there..... and I have to say even though I don't want to believe he still exists, I have to believe he still exists, otherwise this lifetime is nothing but a waste....

I look back over the years and at all the times I've just held back out of fear and it's time to stop being afraid......Carpe Diem.......Sieze the Moment.....and that is what I am going to do.......I want the time of my life to be a life long event.....Experiencing it to the fullest and telling people how I really feel about them.....