Having a rough night....

"Good Riddence"
Greenday

Another turning point
A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
Directs you where to go
So make the best of this test
And dont ask why
Its not a question
But a lesson learned in time

Its something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of
Good health and good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial
For what its worth
It was worth all the while

Its something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

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To my friends.....I hope you had the time of your life.

This will be the song played at my service when I die, weather in 2 weeks or in 50 years......I don't want a pubic viewing, only to family & close friends....I want creamated and I want half of my ashes spread in the ocean on the east coast, the rest I want to go to the Oregon coastline because it's the one place I want to go, but probably will never see in person......

I'm missing you right now Aunt Linda, at a time in my life where I need a friend who always knew what to say, you aren't here because you have gone home. I question alot....is God really still there..... and I have to say even though I don't want to believe he still exists, I have to believe he still exists, otherwise this lifetime is nothing but a waste....

I look back over the years and at all the times I've just held back out of fear and it's time to stop being afraid......Carpe Diem.......Sieze the Moment.....and that is what I am going to do.......I want the time of my life to be a life long event.....Experiencing it to the fullest and telling people how I really feel about them.....